The first case of H1N1 was confirmed in the 3 year old room at Nina's school.
The school followed all the CDC's guidelines and the school is all bleached up.
Nina got a flu shot last month and not sure about the H1N1 yet. It's not even available to us at this time.
It's been 5 months since baby boy died and it's not getting any easier for me. I cannot be happy for friends, relatives, people in Gymboree class, people on the street or in my neighborhood (anybody really) who are pregnant or have babies under 5 months old. Baby envy...jealous rage... whatever you wanna call it...I have it, and I don't care.
This experience has changed me and I am not sure if I can change back.
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Judith, I know there is nothing that I can say to ease your pain, but I think of you often.
We don't have words of wisdom; just lots of hugs.
Hoping that you all avoid the flu bug and other major illnesses this year.
I think your feelings regarding baby boy are very justified and understandable. You are in my thoughts often and I wish I could ease your heartache somehow.
Praying for comfort and joy for you.
Ugh, I hate the H1N1 'crap'. I don't know how your news covers it, but our news talks it up everyday. I never know what to think about it ~ praying for all of you to stay healthy. I, too, along with the other commenters on here, think of you often and pray for God to ease the hurt.
You have experienced a devastating loss on top of previous devastating losses. Most of us would still be under the covers at the 5 month mark.
You are remembered and thought of by so many. We all wish we could change the past and ease your pain.
I think about you often, and all that you've gone through. I think I would have the same feelings that you have- I would feel very angry and bitter.
I've never lost a child, so I have no words of wisdom. But don't ever feel guilty for the way that you're feeling.
Judith, I check in from time to time since you lost your sweet son. As I've commented before, I too have a son who was born sleeping, and I also live in PA. I know you don't write about the pain of losing your son very frequently, but I just wanted to say I'm here if you ever do want to talk about him - sadly its a pain that never goes away. Also, some of us in the Philadelphia area are going on a retreat in Ocean City, NJ Nov 20-23 if you are interested - the link to details is on my blog or you can email me. Hugs.
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