thank you nina

to our sweet little girl, for making us smile, and easing the pain.

Broken

I keep going back to my April 24th post when I wrote:
But I know the end result is worth it: A take home baby--- No tubes, no wires, no alarms, eyes opened, crying pink baby, a healthy baby boy for us! We are in the home stretch!

Well our baby boy did not have any tubes or wires or alarms. He was pink. He was big (7lb 12oz) and beautiful (head full of black hair, chubby cheeks) and healthy as far as we know.
This Wednesday we were supposed to meet him. I need to get through this week.

I still cannot wrap my head around what happened to our baby. Stillborn. What an awful, absolute term. I cannot believe that we will soon be burying our 3 child in 2 years. We are heartbroken and empty.

When the triplets were in the NICU, at least we had hope. Hope that they would get better, hope that they would come home.

Thank goodness for Nina. We say it all the time, but she is a miracle.
She is a miracle that she survived a premature entry into this world, but she is our miracle for keeping this family together right now with her laughter and hugs.

Tragedy has struck our little family once again. There will not be a little brother for Nina nor a son for Jason and me.
Our son was born Saturday morning after a heartbeat could not be detected. All was silent.

We thank you for your continued support and prayers.

The Fox Family

News Flash

New C-section date is Wed May 20th at 3pm! That is soon!

I will be 38 w 6 days at that point!

Tonight is my last P17 shot!

We're doing it! Happy Dance!