Happenings

My brother and his family were in town all last week from Maine.
Had an insanely busy week, we all had a great time. Nina is still talking about it!
Here's my mom with Nina at Dutch Wonderland. Nina and her cousins having lunch on the 4th.


Silly Cousins: Monkey See. Monkey Do

Today is my first day at work since my 8 week hiatus. Glad to be back working my at home, part time gig!

Don't Stop Believing

So it was today, 2 years ago, that we brought Nina home from the hospital. She was 3 1/2 months old and a little over 4 pounds. We had no idea what her future would look like and we never stopped believing.

Today she is 27 months old and is doing awesome! She is the light of our lives.

Over the past two years and especially in the past 6 weeks, we realize how precious life is. We realize that children should never be taken for granted and they are a gift.

We hope one day that we will be able to give Nina a sibling. We will never give up hope, and never stop believing.

How can we with a cool little daughter like Nina?

hmmmm what to say?

I have been meaning to put a new post out here for a few weeks, just really not feeling up to it.

So it's been a month since our baby died.
We are getting through it b/c we have to... some days are better than others and that sorta stuff. I really do not like when people ask me how I am doing...it's just like stirring the pot of shit that is my state of mind. But then when people do not bring it up, I wonder why not...it's just me...I want to control everything... what crap.

So Nina is doing great. Early Intervention wanted to close the book on her, but I told them that I would like the specialists to come out to check her out to make sure I am not missing any red flags.

She talks up a storm, knows her ABC's and can count to 11. She knows tons of animals and objects and characters and will point and say their names, however she really stinks at her colors. She can run, but not jump yep....She is not even 2 years adjusted.

I really think she is doing awesome, but who knows.

So next month we are having OT, Speech and PT come on out to check Nina.

So I guess all I want to talk about on here tonight.

thank you nina

to our sweet little girl, for making us smile, and easing the pain.

Broken

I keep going back to my April 24th post when I wrote:
But I know the end result is worth it: A take home baby--- No tubes, no wires, no alarms, eyes opened, crying pink baby, a healthy baby boy for us! We are in the home stretch!

Well our baby boy did not have any tubes or wires or alarms. He was pink. He was big (7lb 12oz) and beautiful (head full of black hair, chubby cheeks) and healthy as far as we know.
This Wednesday we were supposed to meet him. I need to get through this week.

I still cannot wrap my head around what happened to our baby. Stillborn. What an awful, absolute term. I cannot believe that we will soon be burying our 3 child in 2 years. We are heartbroken and empty.

When the triplets were in the NICU, at least we had hope. Hope that they would get better, hope that they would come home.

Thank goodness for Nina. We say it all the time, but she is a miracle.
She is a miracle that she survived a premature entry into this world, but she is our miracle for keeping this family together right now with her laughter and hugs.

Tragedy has struck our little family once again. There will not be a little brother for Nina nor a son for Jason and me.
Our son was born Saturday morning after a heartbeat could not be detected. All was silent.

We thank you for your continued support and prayers.

The Fox Family

News Flash

New C-section date is Wed May 20th at 3pm! That is soon!

I will be 38 w 6 days at that point!

Tonight is my last P17 shot!

We're doing it! Happy Dance!